Should it be hard to know if you're content or not? For the past couple days, I've been sort of half and half...I really don't know what I am. Yes, the decision to stay at school was made and that means recontracting for housing has to happen this week but for some reason, I feel like something is missing. No, I can't tell you what it is, but it's there....maybe it's just the time of year...I mean, usually something happens to make me antsy around now. This shouldn't be anything shocking to me, but it always surprises me. I want to be content with where I am and what I'm doing...is that too much to ask? Do you ever feel like you aren't doing enough? That you should be trying to do something that actually has importance or helps someone else? I can't lie, missionary or volunteer work still tugs at me every now and then and now is one of those times. I want to do something meaningful...I think that's part of the reason that Criminal Justice or Sociology appealed to me but when it comes down to it, I have no idea what I would do with either of those things. Americorp or Habitat for Humanity would be fun and so rewarding...a lot of work, but so rewarding. I know....school is important you're telling me...yes it is important, I agree. But isn't there more to life than just working, paying bills and making money? Shouldn't we try and make our lives meaningful? When I think about working for the rest of my life, it sounds so horrifying. Now that coul be because I don't know what I want to do lol but yeah:) Maybe I'll run away and join the circus..I am short afterall;)
