Let's try this again, shall we?

Alright let's see if this works. I had this really great day last weekend, like it was so so nice and remembering it makes me smile. Long conversations are the best and it would have gone longer but something came up...honestly, talking to someone for basically 12 hours and being comfortable...I don't know how to describe it. Trying to talk about it makes me feel so girly hehe but I can't help it. A friend and I were talking and she said something about how she wasn't sure if she was in love with the guy that she's kind of seeing and asked me if I had ever been in love. I wasn't quite sure how to answer her...really up to this point, I'd say no cause most of the guys I liked were just crushes...I mean there's always that one guy who you'll probably like forever but it's different than being in love with someone. So I had to give her an 'I don't know.' Really though, I'm not sure. Is it bad when all you want to do is sit and talk to someone for hours or not even talk, just watch them? Watch them play guitar or how they do little things, movements that they make, nervous habits, or how they smile, how their eyes crinkle in the corners if they do, just studying them...that's what I want to do. I want to sit, play guitar and sing for hours or until music runs out or my fingers are screaming at me and know that even if it sounds horrid, it'd be fun. And wanting more than anything to cuddle and know that if we fell asleep, they'd still be there in the morning. That's what I want...maybe it sounds foolish but it'd be so nice...so utterly comfortable..

this made my night hehe

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"I don't have to be me til Monday..."

Such a great song and very much how I felt this weekend. This weekend went by way to quickly. The weekends are such relief for me, honestly. School is taking way too much effort right now...I know that doesn't sound right considering that school isn't supposed to be easy, but it's more or less that I'm not in the frame of mind to want to be doing homework and going to class, etc. You'll say that this is where I'm supposed to be, I only have two years left so I should just finish my degree and stop complaining about it. Normally that would be okay and I generally listen to people, but I haven't been content in so long, I'm starting to wonder if this is actually right. Maybe I should just have taken a semester off like I had considered. What to do while not is school would be the question though. Working obviously, but what else? I have no idea. It really isn't fun wondering all of this and makes it harder when you have papers and such due. With the way hall government is going too, I'm just getting stressed out. Not taking on so much would be the better way to go, but I feel like I should stay with it.